Moving on

A lot of people have told me I did not deserve this, but maybe I did. I look at what happened as a lesson, and it will guide me to that woman. The woman who will receive my heart and give me hers in return. If there are more lessons life has to give me about love, i’ll accept them. I won’t let this stop me from putting my heart and soul into a relationship. I learned that emotions can make you go down a path that you would’ve never seen yourself go down. Honestly tho love is fucking crazy haha. 

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She used my mistakes against me, and she had me actually feel like I did deserve it. But the most fucked up thing was, she had a mistake also. She slept with one of my closest “friends” and she told me the same thing I told her “It was a mistake.” Everything hurts equally, one she held me against my past when she had one also, two that her mistake was before mine and when I asked if she had sex with other guys I would get a “No” and three, some of my friends knew and didn’t bother to step up and accept anything that had to come with the truth. I never lied to her, I mean I told her the truth a few weeks later when she asked..but at least I told the truth. I felt like lying was not the way to go and trust me there were plenty of times I could have lied. Both her and my friend held it behind my back for at least a year, they were both scared to accept the consequences. 5 years of trying to convince her of my love..and I did my best. No ones perfect and yes people do make mistakes, but its how they handle their mistakes that really matters. 

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This is what a blog is for, getting all the fucked up ideas out of your head and putting them out in cyberspace. Well from my experience of love I found out that people can form their own definition for this emotion. From what I think love is, through my experience, that it is everything from good to bad. That it’s not just a title you give each other, it is a promise. That promise says, “I find you worth it for and to take everything that love has to offer.” But people make mistakes. So It is your choice to forgive and help them. Some people might say, “Why help someone who cheated on you or who lied to you.” Well if that person realizes their mistake and wants to fix themselves for you, why not give them another chance? Then some people might say, “They should have never fucked up in the first place.” Yes, this is true but everyone has and made mistakes. That choice to forgive is entirely up to that person. But this what I believe, as long as you see each other at the ends of a line and decide, “I want to be on that side” everything might get easier. But going back to what I said, you have to find someone who is worth making that promise to. Everyone has their own definition of love. 

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You get held back by fear and doubt but when you feel that person by your side is worth everything, you forget about everything else. Once you realize you jumped, you’re in love. But true love is only obtainable when the both of you are ready to jump together.

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seventh letter is the truth.

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